Jesus said –
“You have heard that it was said, ‘You shall love your neighbor and hate your enemy.’ But I say to you, Love your enemies and pray for those who persecute you, so that you may be sons of your Father who is in heaven. For he makes his sun rise on the evil and on the good, and sends rain on the just and on the unjust. For if you love those who love you, what reward do you have? Do not even the tax collectors do the same? And if you greet only your brothers, what more are you doing than others? Do not even the Gentiles do the same? You therefore must be perfect, as your heavenly Father is perfect.”
I knew it was difficult. But I also knew that being a Christian makes a difference to us being able, even wanting to keep the commandment.
Yesterday however, I was reminded afresh how difficult that command really is, and how much more difficult it is when you know that your anger and enmity against “your enemy” is a righteous one…
And yet, even as I was feeling upset and angry, I couldn’t help but think –
“Oh, who are you, Lilis, that you think so low of those people, and so highly of yourself?! You are the same with them in the way you treated God! What you did was probably even worse than what they did! And yet, He forgave you… He chose to forgive you (!) . . . Loving your enemy is not a command given lightly by God. It’s not a command that He had no idea about. He knows what it means to forgive those who are really in the wrong. He knows… And so you can do that, too… Just ask Him for His help……”
Yeah…. yesterday, I heard another sad news from my mum. (I said another one because I just heard one the Friday before… )
A few days ago, one of my high-school friends, who’s personally known to Mum, and my siblings, and who was also my brother’s swimming tutor at one time, was involved in a road accident.
He was riding a motorbike with his friend, when an unexpected thing happened (I was so shocked that I forgot the exact details of the story), and he had to stop suddenly and he fell from his bike to the road.
He fell in front of a moving ‘angkot’ (a car) and so was hit by the car. (Can’t even think of the English words now… but basically, he was lying down there on the road and the car was driven over him…)
You might protest my choice of words, but keep reading, it might make more sense…
Being hit and rode over was not the worst bit that happened to him…
All that happened in a strongly M area – another town close-by… and an area known to be very anti-Chinese. And that’s why no one helped him and his friend (who was not as badly hit as he was) after he fell from his bike, and before being hit, and after being hit by the car…
He was brought into a hospital, and yet not attended to… Because he is who he is… Someone of a Chinese descent…
So he was unattended to until his dad found out about the accident and then he was transferred to a big city a few hours drive from there…
A few of his ribs were broken… One of them pierced his liver and because it was hours before he was attended to (4 hours until his dad found out and then more), he had to have 1/4 of his liver taken out.
His jaws were broken, and people who’d seen him said that made him looked slightly disfigured…
I can’t imagine how he looks like now. Probably all wrapped up with bandages in the hospital…
But I still remember how he looked like… his face when he cracked a joke… when he addressed my Mum… when he talked to my brother about swimming…
Don’t know how old his kids are now… Or how is his wife coping with this… They are not exactly rich people…
Am I upset? Yeah… quite…
Well, I think, I’m very upset, especially considering my mum is also upset, but yeah, just trying to contain and control my emotions a bit.
But yeah… upset. Angry. Sad. Angry.
More angry to those people who did nothing to help rather than to God for letting this happen. SO angry at them! Sad for my friend, and his family… but VERY angry at those people…
And yet… all along… I know that I can’t and shouldn’t be like those people who showed no compassion to my friend! I can’t be like them and hate them, because I’m someone who’s been shown mercy! And so I have to be merciful…
Who am I anyway to think that I’m not capable of the same evil as they are?!
I am a forgiven sinner… And they, too, need this forgiveness…
At times like this, I can’t help but think – “You see God? That’s why I said to you years ago – send me anywhere, but back to my home country…”
And yet I knew the answer to that… “The Gospel of Christ is the answer… It is your answer. Nothing and no one can change people… Only the Gospel of Christ. And that’s why, this Gospel of Christ needs to go there!”